I think about my ex-boyfriends. I wonder what they're doing and what their life is like now. I wonder what my life would be like if I had married any one of them. I'm certain I married my soul mate, but what if I hadn't waited for him. What if I settled?? Would I be happy? Would I have kids? Would I still be working? Where would I be working? Where would I be living? Most of my exes are good dudes. They weren't the one for various reasons, but I dated good ones.
I also wonder if they think of me. Do they remember me? Do they think of me fondly? I wonder if they met me again... now... would they be into me again? I feel like I'm so different than I was. I'm 10-15 pounds heavier, a Mom, I don't work anymore. So many things that used to define me are gone. I remember being told so many times that if one had "met me later in life" I would have been the one. Insinuating I would make a could wife and they weren't ready to settle down. Do they regret that now? Am I their "one that got away"? I feel lucky to say I don't have that feeling, but it still doesn't keep me from thinking about them.
I think if you love someone a part of them will always be in your heart.
