Ex Boyfriends

I think about my ex-boyfriends.   I wonder what they're doing and what their life is like now.   I wonder what my life would be like if I had married any one of them.   I'm certain I married my soul mate, but what if I hadn't waited for him.  What if I settled??   Would I be happy?  Would I have kids?  Would I still be working? Where would I be working?  Where would I be living?   Most of my exes are good dudes.   They weren't the one for various reasons, but I dated good ones.  

I also wonder if they think of me.  Do they remember me?  Do they think of me fondly?   I  wonder if they met me again... now... would they be into me again?   I feel like I'm so different than I was.  I'm 10-15 pounds heavier, a Mom, I don't work anymore.   So many things that used to define me are gone.   I remember being told so many times that if one had "met me later in life" I would have been the one.  Insinuating I would make a could wife and they weren't ready to settle down.  Do they regret that now?   Am I their "one that got away"?  I feel lucky to say I don't have that feeling, but it still doesn't keep me from thinking about them. 

I think if you love someone a part of them will always be in your heart.